Category Archives: Mental Health

Mar 22

The Days Are A Blur

This month has been constantly busy with Dentist appointments, school events, and then Spring Break arrived. I have been just trying my best to keep up with the day to day of the household, but I’ve fallen behind.

I am relieved that Spring has arrived. Winter is usually pretty kind to my mental health, but this winter did not fare too well. I’ve been in a major depressive state since July 2018, and I just can’t seem to pull out of it.

Once the kids are back in school, and forensics tournaments have slowed a bit, I’ll check in with my doctor and see what it going on in noggin land.

I hope the spring weather is treating you kindly, and before we know it another month has flown by.

Dec 31

2018 Reflections

I’ve been in my head a lot lately… How can I put this, 2018 was a very long and very challenging year. I haven’t been well for the last six months, and I am honestly grateful to say good-bye to this year.

I am hopeful that 2019 is a better year for us all…

Dec 1

A Quick Check In…

Over a week ago a terrible panic attack left me with a four day migraine. I’ve been sick, really sick, and it sucks. I wasn’t able to host Thanksgiving, and I think I made everyone mad in the process, and I feel bad about it. Mental illness sucks, and it wrecks everything, and I’m not o.k. right now…

Last Wednesday I went to the doctor to adjust my meds, and follow up with another check-up in March, with a possible re-diagnosis. It sucks, and I felt like a failure, six years, and I’m still not well…

I’m getting adjusted to the higher dose of medication, and trying to figure out what I can do to eliminate stress in my life. I have to get better…

 

 

Nov 16

Stupid Anxiety is Stupid

I woke up with a headache today, and this afternoon it has decided to magically turn itself into a migraine. I haven’t had a migraine in a good two months, and I’m grumpy about it…

I also needed to fill a prescription for my anxiety medication. I decide to use the online service that you are supposed to use because it is faster than calling. My prescription gets denied, due to needing to schedule an appointment to refill the prescription. I reply to the email to schedule an appointment to refill the prescription, and they reply back, what is the nature of this appointment?!? I am truly annoyed… I hate it when you need anxiety medicine to schedule your appointment for anxiety medication.

With the holidays approaching, I’m a perfect blend of uncontrollable boundless energy, or a puddle of exhaustion that sleeping around the clock isn’t fixing… I am seriously annoyed with my brain at the moment.

 

 

Sep 8

Almost a month…

Damnit… I made it almost a month before my anxiety took back over, and I woke up to a panic attack.

I hate this feeling, I was doing so much better, and then here comes a set back. I feel like crap, and I’m climbing the walls. Days like this bring out the worst in me.