This Summer has been way too hot, and filled with overall grouchiness from everyone in the household. I’m tired, and in need of a bit of a break.
We have just about one more month left to the Summer, and so many things that need to get done… I really hope I can remember it all.
May is Mental Health Awareness month, and I’m sharing my struggles right now…
I’m headed to the Doctor tomorrow for prescription refills, and a check-up/check in , and all I can say is I really don’t feel well. I’m nervous about talking with the Doctor again, as I haven’t improved. I’m disappointed in myself that I haven’t improved. It’s frustrating, and unnerving, and I have to go.
I have new symptoms, and old symptoms creeping back in again. I don’t know what she is going to say about it all. I’m already feeling rough. I hate this part of my life.
Eighteen days left to the school year, and I ‘m still not better… I’m tired, anxious, and absolutely dreading the months ahead.
Summer is when my depression peaks and seasonal affective disorder has me in it’s grip. I’m usually feeling better by September or October, but this year feeling better never happened.
Days blurred into one another and exhaustion set in. Mind numbing tasks abounded, but there wasn’t really anything to look forward too. The loud sounds of the house send me into a disassociated state, and all I want to do is sleep.
I don’t feel good about the oncoming Summer…
Over a week ago a terrible panic attack left me with a four day migraine. I’ve been sick, really sick, and it sucks. I wasn’t able to host Thanksgiving, and I think I made everyone mad in the process, and I feel bad about it. Mental illness sucks, and it wrecks everything, and I’m not o.k. right now…
Last Wednesday I went to the doctor to adjust my meds, and follow up with another check-up in March, with a possible re-diagnosis. It sucks, and I felt like a failure, six years, and I’m still not well…
I’m getting adjusted to the higher dose of medication, and trying to figure out what I can do to eliminate stress in my life. I have to get better…
I woke up with a headache today, and this afternoon it has decided to magically turn itself into a migraine. I haven’t had a migraine in a good two months, and I’m grumpy about it…
I also needed to fill a prescription for my anxiety medication. I decide to use the online service that you are supposed to use because it is faster than calling. My prescription gets denied, due to needing to schedule an appointment to refill the prescription. I reply to the email to schedule an appointment to refill the prescription, and they reply back, what is the nature of this appointment?!? I am truly annoyed… I hate it when you need anxiety medicine to schedule your appointment for anxiety medication.
With the holidays approaching, I’m a perfect blend of uncontrollable boundless energy, or a puddle of exhaustion that sleeping around the clock isn’t fixing… I am seriously annoyed with my brain at the moment.