Over a week ago a terrible panic attack left me with a four day migraine. I’ve been sick, really sick, and it sucks. I wasn’t able to host Thanksgiving, and I think I made everyone mad in the process, and I feel bad about it. Mental illness sucks, and it wrecks everything, and I’m not o.k. right now…

Last Wednesday I went to the doctor to adjust my meds, and follow up with another check-up in March, with a possible re-diagnosis. It sucks, and I felt like a failure, six years, and I’m still not well…

I’m getting adjusted to the higher dose of medication, and trying to figure out what I can do to eliminate stress in my life. I have to get better…